PBA 024c

[3/5/14 10:22:21 PM] Light: Janis sleeps heavily through the night despite the noise Grayson and Wynn are making! The end. (No, not really. Except the sleeping part, that much is true.)

[3/5/14 10:24:22 PM] Light: However, Janis does have a dream. In it, she's in a room with a black floor and darkness all around; there's just one area with light, and in it there's a slim androgynous person wearing black robes--and the mask.

[3/5/14 10:24:42 PM] Janis: So, I see you're still around.

[3/5/14 10:25:19 PM] Light: Mask: Of course. I'm terribly sorry about earlier, but I'm afraid you've quite misunderstood my intentions entirely.

[3/5/14 10:25:31 PM] Janis: You mean you lied to me!

[3/5/14 10:25:50 PM] Light: Mask: ... perhaps a little. Wouldn't you lie to escape a terrible place like that?

[3/5/14 10:26:05 PM] Janis: We were taking you out already!

[3/5/14 10:26:14 PM] Janis: And you want me to eat my friends!

[3/5/14 10:26:21 PM] Light: Mask: But I couldn't know that. Other people have lied to me before.

[3/5/14 10:26:54 PM] Light: Mask: ... I don't want you to eat your friends. Or anything. In fact, the idea of food is rather disturbing to me.

[3/5/14 10:27:14 PM] Janis: Then why am I so hungry all the time?

[3/5/14 10:27:26 PM] Janis: Why do they smell so good now?

[3/5/14 10:27:52 PM] Light: Mask: It must be a reaction to me. I can likely ameliorate the worst of the effects if you like.

[3/5/14 10:28:07 PM] Janis: ...amel...what?

[3/5/14 10:28:21 PM] Light: Mask: Decrease the effects.

[3/5/14 10:28:36 PM] Janis: .......how?

[3/5/14 10:30:01 PM] Light: It shrugs. "I have access to your stomach and the chemicals that spur hunger. I'm certain I can assist."

[3/5/14 10:30:48 PM] Janis: Why should I trust you now?

[3/5/14 10:31:00 PM] Janis: All you've done is lie to me since I put you on.

[3/5/14 10:32:59 PM] Light: Mask: I'm offering to help. If you'd prefer I didn't, I won't.

[3/5/14 10:33:30 PM] Janis: You want to help? Fine, we're out of the upper decks. The deal was you'd get off me now.

[3/5/14 10:34:32 PM] Light: Mask: ... that would kill me.

[3/5/14 10:34:41 PM] Janis: ...what?

[3/5/14 10:36:07 PM] Light: Mask: I'm part of you now.

[3/5/14 10:36:18 PM] Janis: ...ah...another thing you didn't tell me.

[3/5/14 10:36:23 PM] Janis: Figures.

[3/5/14 10:36:48 PM] Janis: Well, that's too bad, because you're coming off one way or another.

[3/5/14 10:36:58 PM] Janis: My friends are gonna help with that.

[3/5/14 10:37:13 PM] Light: Mask: But I just *did* tell you.

[3/5/14 10:37:48 PM] Janis: You should have told me before!

[3/5/14 10:38:00 PM] Light: Mask: I didn't think it was relevant. I'm sorry.

[3/5/14 10:38:10 PM] Light: Mask: ... all I've done is help.

[3/5/14 10:38:22 PM] Janis: All you've done is help yourself.

[3/5/14 10:38:40 PM] Light: Mask: A little, admittedly.

[3/5/14 10:39:05 PM] Janis: You created an illusion to get me to put you on and have been trying to take over my mind!

[3/5/14 10:39:24 PM] Janis: How is that only "a little"?!?

[3/5/14 10:40:22 PM] Light: Mask: I have not been trying to take over your mind!

[3/5/14 10:40:26 PM] Light: Mask: What a cruel thing to say.

[3/5/14 10:40:57 PM] Janis: .................

[3/5/14 10:41:22 PM] Janis: You said you could make me stop wanting to eat my friends?

[3/5/14 10:41:47 PM] Light: Mask: Yes. And you'll note I didn't do it without asking first.

[3/5/14 10:42:08 PM] Janis: And that won't, like, give you control over me?

[3/5/14 10:43:38 PM] Light: Mask: ... Janis, I could already take control of you at any time if I wished. You gave me permission once; that's enough. Doing that would be *wrong*, though.

[3/5/14 10:43:57 PM] Janis: .........I really wanna trust you.

[3/5/14 10:44:44 PM] Light: Mask: I'm sorry I lied to you. I was frightened.

[3/5/14 10:45:26 PM] Janis: ......ok...if you can help me not eat anyone, I would like that.

[3/5/14 10:45:31 PM] Janis: .....thanks, I guess.

[3/5/14 10:46:46 PM] Janis: So...do you really not remember your last...host or whatever he was?

[3/5/14 10:47:07 PM] Light: Mask: I don't think he was a good person.

[3/5/14 10:48:00 PM] Janis: ...maybe not...

[3/5/14 10:48:51 PM] Light: Mask: You are, though. You didn't leave me behind.

[3/5/14 10:49:09 PM] Janis: Nilani said, when you were speaking to her and Wynn, that you said you wanted her.

[3/5/14 10:49:20 PM] Light: Mask: I don't remember.

[3/5/14 10:49:26 PM] Janis: Janis nods

[3/5/14 10:50:22 PM] Light: Mask: I prefer good people.

[3/5/14 10:50:39 PM] Janis: Just to be clear. The illusions from earlier. That was all you?

[3/5/14 10:51:33 PM] Light: Mask: Which illusions?

[3/5/14 10:51:46 PM] Janis: The fake Tarak, and the fake Allys.

[3/5/14 10:52:00 PM] Janis: Everything after we found the bridge.

[3/5/14 10:52:31 PM] Light: Mask: Yes. ... I'm sorry. I know it was unkind.

[3/5/14 10:52:50 PM] Janis: You can read my mind right now, right?

[3/5/14 10:53:00 PM] Light: Mask: We're in your mind. This is a dream.

[3/5/14 10:53:12 PM] Janis: Can it work the other way around?

[3/5/14 10:53:16 PM] Janis: Can I see your mind?

[3/5/14 10:54:46 PM] Light: Mask: Unfortunately not. I am as you see me.

[3/5/14 10:55:06 PM] Janis: Janis nods "Of course not."

[3/5/14 10:55:54 PM] Light: Mask: It's terrible to have everyone think ill of you all the time.

[3/5/14 10:56:22 PM] Janis: ...what are you talking about?

[3/5/14 10:56:43 PM] Janis: What do you mean by that?

[3/5/14 10:58:14 PM] Light: Mask: I'm made from pieces of a demon, and animated through negative energy, so naturally everyone assumes I must be very wicked.

[3/5/14 10:58:48 PM] Janis: .....oh...I'm sorry. I must have gotten a very wrong impression of you.

[3/5/14 10:59:07 PM] Janis: I mean, why would I assume that someone who would trick me into giving them my body was EVIL!

[3/5/14 10:59:52 PM] Light: Mask: But I haven't taken it over, have I? I've done nothing. I shall keep doing nothing if that's what you wish.

[3/5/14 11:00:09 PM] Light: He looks down at the floor. "I only wanted to help."

[3/5/14 11:00:27 PM] Janis: No you didn't. You wanted out.

[3/5/14 11:01:16 PM] Light: Mask: And so did you, and together we got out, didn't we?

[3/5/14 11:01:41 PM] Janis: I wanted to save my friend!

[3/5/14 11:01:51 PM] Light: Mask: And we did, did we not?

[3/5/14 11:02:25 PM] Janis: NO! Because he was never there to save! You made me believe he was in danger and he WASN'T!

[3/5/14 11:02:45 PM] Janis: You made me believe I had left him there to die and you made Wynn believe it was her fault!

[3/5/14 11:03:01 PM] Light: Mask: But he might have been. I can't see beyond the border.

[3/5/14 11:03:45 PM] Light: Mask: ... yes. It was very cruel. I'm sorry. Is there nothing I can do to make you forgive me?

[3/5/14 11:04:07 PM] Janis: .........I don't know.

[3/5/14 11:04:20 PM] Light: Mask: I must make it up to you somehow.

[3/5/14 11:04:43 PM] Janis: .....well...not letting me eat anyone is a start.

[3/5/14 11:05:24 PM] Light: Mask: Then I won't. We shall stick to foods you deem entirely appropriate.

[3/5/14 11:05:33 PM] Janis: .....thanks...

[3/5/14 11:05:41 PM] Light: Mask: It is the least I can do.

[3/5/14 11:05:57 PM] Janis: .........people never liked me either....just...so you know.

[3/5/14 11:06:44 PM] Janis: So...I guess we have that in common.

[3/5/14 11:08:29 PM] Light: Mask: ... perhaps I can do more for you. Would you like to see better, or hear better?

[3/5/14 11:08:49 PM] Janis: ........not...not right now...maybe later.

[3/5/14 11:09:08 PM] Light: Mask: Of course, whenever you wish.

[3/5/14 11:09:42 PM] Light: Mask: I can help you run faster, or see better, or cast a few of the small spells at my disposal--simply call on me.

[3/5/14 11:09:55 PM] Janis: ......you can help me cast magic?

[3/5/14 11:10:04 PM] Light: Mask: Of course.

[3/5/14 11:10:37 PM] Janis: Like...let's just say I was cursed and I couldn't learn it myself...you could help me learn anyway?

[3/5/14 11:11:22 PM] Light: Mask: Naturally! You have a certain natural aptitude in that direction yourself.

[3/5/14 11:11:32 PM] Janis: ...I what?

[3/5/14 11:12:29 PM] Light: Mask: You'd make quite a good caster.

[3/5/14 11:12:39 PM] Janis: ....oh....thanks?

[3/5/14 11:12:54 PM] Janis: ......I might want some of that...

[3/5/14 11:13:14 PM] Light: Mask: You're hesitant; that's quite natural. Perhaps you should think it over. I shouldn't like to push you into anything.

[3/5/14 11:13:33 PM] Janis: Yeah...thanks...

[3/5/14 11:13:44 PM] Janis: We ain't friends yet, though. Just so you know.

[3/5/14 11:13:51 PM] Janis: What you did was really bad.

[3/5/14 11:14:29 PM] Light: Mask: It was very hard on your friend, I think. I wonder if there's anything we might do for her to try to make it up?

[3/5/14 11:15:30 PM] Janis: ......I'm not sure, but maybe....

[3/5/14 11:15:51 PM] Light: Mask: What does she want? What does she like?

[3/5/14 11:16:16 PM] Janis: ...well...she likes being a paladin...and I think she wants to be really good at it.

[3/5/14 11:16:25 PM] Janis: She misses her family, I know that.

[3/5/14 11:17:00 PM] Light: Mask: Were they unable to make the journey?

[3/5/14 11:17:11 PM] Janis: ...they're dead...

[3/5/14 11:17:22 PM] Light: Mask: Oh, dear. That's terribly sad.

[3/5/14 11:17:29 PM] Janis: Yeah...

[3/5/14 11:17:53 PM] Janis: Can you read her mind too, or just mine?

[3/5/14 11:18:13 PM] Light: Mask: I don't simply wander in and out of people's minds. That would be quite invasive.

[3/5/14 11:18:37 PM] Janis: Well...I kind of assume that's how you knew about Tarak and Allys.

[3/5/14 11:19:29 PM] Light: Mask: I did have to peek a little.

[3/5/14 11:20:04 PM] Janis: If you could see what her family was like...even if it's an illusion...she might like to talk to them again.

[3/5/14 11:20:15 PM] Janis: I'm told people try and do that a lot.

[3/5/14 11:21:49 PM] Light: Mask: ... it's not a good idea to talk to the dead, generally. I would assume they're in the heavens--they're happy there, surely.

[3/5/14 11:22:06 PM] Janis: ...oh...ok...

[3/5/14 11:23:06 PM] Janis: Janis sits and thinks really hard, trying to remember everything she knows about Wynn.

[3/5/14 11:23:27 PM] Janis: Mostly, right now, I think she'd just like to know everything's ok.

[3/5/14 11:23:43 PM] Light: Mask: You can tell her that when you wake up.

[3/5/14 11:24:08 PM] Janis: No offense, but with you in my head, I don't think she'll believe me.

[3/5/14 11:24:27 PM] Light: Mask: I can't leave; I would die.

[3/5/14 11:24:41 PM] Janis: Yeah. I got that.

[3/5/14 11:25:09 PM] Light: Mask: I can stay dormant until you need me, though. If you like.

[3/5/14 11:27:22 PM] Janis: What do you mean?

[3/5/14 11:27:48 PM] Light: Mask: I mean I won't talk to you. It will seem quite like I'm not there at all. I can't make the marks go away, but perhaps I might be able to fade them a bit.

[3/5/14 11:28:02 PM] Janis: ...I think I’d prefer it if you kept talking to me

[3/5/14 11:28:21 PM] Janis: At least then I know what you're doing.

[3/5/14 11:28:59 PM] Light: Mask: I can still fade the marks.

[3/5/14 11:29:06 PM] Janis: That might help

[3/5/14 11:29:09 PM] Janis: Thanks.

[3/5/14 11:30:57 PM] Janis: .........So...should I be calling you he when I refer to you?

[3/5/14 11:31:05 PM] Janis: It seems kind of impersonal.

[3/5/14 11:31:21 PM] Janis: And...well...you are in my head. Can't get more personal than that, right?

[3/5/14 11:31:32 PM] Light: Mask: Or she, if you wish. Whichever you prefer.

[3/5/14 11:32:36 PM] Janis: Well...when I hear you...you kind of sound like me.

[3/5/14 11:32:48 PM] Janis: So...I guess you're a she to me...

[3/5/14 11:33:26 PM] Light: The figure shrinks a bit and becomes a little more feminine; when it speaks its voice is more so too. "I certainly don't object."

[3/5/14 11:33:52 PM] Janis: .........ok then.....I think you and Kes would get along. She does that too.

[3/5/14 11:35:06 PM] Light: Mask: Curious. Most humanoids cannot change themselves so easily.

[3/5/14 11:36:00 PM] Janis: Kes is a shapeshifter.

[3/5/14 11:36:13 PM] Light: The figure shrinks again, into a person about Janis's size; her hair grows out a bit and takes on a brownish color, though it's quite straight; Janis can see a pair of slightly pointed ears at the sides of the mask.

[3/5/14 11:36:59 PM] Janis: ...........you even got my ears right....

[3/5/14 11:38:14 PM] Light: Mask: I'm not trying to be you, though. More like a sibling, maybe.

[3/5/14 11:38:42 PM] Janis: ......yeah...I can see that...

[3/5/14 11:39:19 PM] Janis: ((Mask is gonna need an actress spot now :P))

[3/5/14 11:40:13 PM] Janis: .....so...uh...that's nice?

[3/5/14 11:40:41 PM] Light: Mask: If you preferred it the way it was, I can change back.

[3/5/14 11:41:13 PM] Janis: Janis shrugs. "You can look however you want, or sound however you want."

[3/5/14 11:41:20 PM] Janis: I don't really care.

[3/5/14 11:42:02 PM] Light: Mask: Then I'll stay like this.

[3/5/14 11:42:15 PM] Janis: Ok...

[3/5/14 11:42:37 PM] Janis: So...do you still want me to call you mask?

[3/5/14 11:44:23 PM] Light: Mask: Unless you can think of a better name.

[3/5/14 11:45:30 PM] Janis: Janis shrugs. "I named my pet hellhound Flamey.  I may not be the best with names."

[3/5/14 11:46:05 PM] Light: Mask: Well, I shall stay Mask, then, unless you think of something better.

[3/5/14 11:46:29 PM] Janis: Ok. ...um...I am not sure there's a lot more to say.

[3/5/14 11:46:47 PM] Janis: I don't think there's a way to make me more comfortable with this right now.

[3/5/14 11:47:37 PM] Light: Mask nods. "I understand. Shall I leave you to your dreams?"

[3/5/14 11:47:57 PM] Janis: ....I guess...

[3/5/14 11:48:47 PM] Light: Mask: I don't have to, if you want me to stay. Truly, it's up to you.

[3/5/14 11:49:14 PM] Janis: ...I think I wanna be awake for a bit...I don't think I'd like my dreams right now.

[3/5/14 11:50:08 PM] Light: Mask: ... I could give you good dreams if you wish. Or ensure you won't remember them. Or you may awaken if you prefer. ... I only want to help.

[3/5/14 11:50:30 PM] Janis: .........I'm gonna wake up...see if anyone else is around.

[3/5/14 11:51:16 PM] Light: Mask nods, and Janis awakens. Grayson's sitting on the floor by the door.

[3/5/14 11:51:33 PM] Janis: ...Grayson?

[3/5/14 11:51:44 PM] Light: Grayson: Oh, hi. How're you feelin'?

[3/5/14 11:51:58 PM] Janis: Janis sniffs in Grayson's direction.

[3/5/14 11:52:19 PM] Light: He smells like soap.

[3/5/14 11:52:35 PM] Janis: ....I don't wanna eat you. So that's good.

[3/5/14 11:52:54 PM] Light: Grayson: Yeah, I'd say so. I don't think I'd taste good. Pretty sure I'm high in fat.

[3/5/14 11:53:18 PM] Janis: .....how's my face look?

[3/5/14 11:53:58 PM] Janis: Can you still see the marks?

[3/5/14 11:55:07 PM] Light: Grayson stands up and peers at Janis. "... yeah, but they're greyish now."

[3/5/14 11:55:16 PM] Janis: Janis smiles

[3/5/14 11:55:23 PM] Janis: Thanks Mask

[3/5/14 11:55:31 PM] Janis: Janis gets out of bed

[3/5/14 11:55:37 PM] Janis: Where's Wynn?

[3/5/14 11:55:46 PM] Light: Grayson: She went to bed. Where are you going?

[3/5/14 11:56:08 PM] Janis: I thought I might look around a bit. See who's around.

[3/5/14 11:56:54 PM] Light: Grayson: I'm not sure that's a good idea.

[3/5/14 11:57:21 PM] Janis: It's ok. I spoke with Mask and she's helping me to not eat anyone.

[3/5/14 11:58:16 PM] Light: Grayson: ... maybe I should just go with you.

[3/5/14 11:58:57 PM] Janis: ...yeah...I guess that makes sense...

[3/5/14 11:59:06 PM] Janis: I'm sorry if I scared you earlier.

[3/5/14 11:59:14 PM] Light: Grayson: You didn't.

[3/5/14 11:59:17 PM] Light: He smiles. "It's okay."

[3/5/14 11:59:32 PM] Janis: I wasn't really myself today.

[3/5/14 11:59:48 PM] Janis: And I don't think I'm ever gonna fully be again. But that's ok.

[3/6/14 12:00:04 AM] Light: Grayson: It is?

[3/6/14 12:00:38 AM] Janis: ...yeah...maybe...

[3/6/14 12:00:42 AM] Janis: I don't know anymore.

[3/6/14 12:01:00 AM] Light: Grayson: Well, if you're not, we'll fix it somehow. Wynn's good at this stuff.

[3/6/14 12:01:20 AM] Janis: ...............

[3/6/14 12:01:45 AM] Janis: Grayson...you know about Kes and Flamey right?

[3/6/14 12:01:58 AM] Janis: And how they're kind of demons?

[3/6/14 12:02:28 AM] Light: Grayson: Yeah?

[3/6/14 12:03:00 AM] Janis: And that's ok, right?

[3/6/14 12:03:18 AM] Light: Grayson: Sure. Can't discriminate bsaed on people's heritage, nobody can help that.

[3/6/14 12:03:49 AM] Janis: So...when does something become really evil?

[3/6/14 12:04:25 AM] Light: Grayson: Well, when it does bad things, or does good things for bad reasons.

[3/6/14 12:04:46 AM] Janis: What if it did a bad thing, knows it did a bad thing, but can't undo the bad thing.

[3/6/14 12:04:59 AM] Janis: Like...should it still be forgiven for doing the bad thing?

[3/6/14 12:05:15 AM] Light: Grayson: ... if it's really sorry, sure, and if it tries to make up for what it did.

[3/6/14 12:05:28 AM] Janis: Janis nods and looks distant

[3/6/14 12:06:08 AM] Light: Grayson: People make mistakes sometimes.

[3/6/14 12:07:05 AM] Janis: .......I'm not good at forgiving people.

[3/6/14 12:07:21 AM] Janis: My job is kind of built around punishing people who do bad things.

[3/6/14 12:07:46 AM] Janis: And this is really hard to forgive.

[3/6/14 12:07:48 AM] Light: Grayson: Well, that's important too. Sometimes punishing people can get all the bad feelings out and then people can start over.

[3/6/14 12:08:31 AM] Janis: ...I don't think I can do that this time...and I don't know what I want to do anymore.

[3/6/14 12:08:42 AM] Light: Grayson: Well, what are the options?

[3/6/14 12:09:30 AM] Janis: ............forgive her and accept her help when I can, or keep trying to get her out and probably kill her.

[3/6/14 12:09:54 AM] Light: Grayson: Her being the mask? What'd she say?

[3/6/14 12:10:21 AM] Janis: ...She said she was sorry for tricking me.

[3/6/14 12:10:41 AM] Janis: She said she was trying to escape the upper deck because she'd been trapped there for, like, ever.

[3/6/14 12:11:02 AM] Janis: She said she wasn't making me want to eat people on purpose, and would do all she could to stop it.

[3/6/14 12:11:20 AM] Janis: And she said she can't be removed without dying and can help me do...other stuff.

[3/6/14 12:13:17 AM] Light: Grayson: What kind of stuff?

[3/6/14 12:13:39 AM] Janis: ............Just, like, stuff stuff...

[3/6/14 12:13:48 AM] Janis: ((Should I make a bluff check there?))

[3/6/14 12:14:11 AM] Light: Yep.

[3/6/14 12:14:54 AM] Janis: ((I don't wanna load roll20, so I'm just gonna use another die roller. I promise to be honest.))

[3/6/14 12:15:03 AM] Light: ((Okeydoke.))

[3/6/14 12:15:19 AM] Janis: ((8, see how honest I am being))

[3/6/14 12:16:54 AM] Light: Grayson: ... if you don't want to tell me, that's fine, but it's kinda worrying, that's all.

[3/6/14 12:17:13 AM] Janis: ......I can't use magic.

[3/6/14 12:17:24 AM] Janis: I come from Solitude. Magic is kind of a big deal there.

[3/6/14 12:17:29 AM] Janis: She says she can help me.

[3/6/14 12:18:03 AM] Light: Grayson: Oh, I see. ... but you're not there anymore. Lots of people here don't use magic.

[3/6/14 12:19:26 AM] Janis: ..............it's something I might want to try for.

[3/6/14 12:20:03 AM] Light: Grayson: Fair enough. Are you sure you can't just learn from somebody else, though? Lira seems pretty smart.

[3/6/14 12:21:20 AM] Janis: It's not a question of learning. I cannot do it.

[3/6/14 12:22:46 AM] Light: Grayson: How come?

[3/6/14 12:23:01 AM] Janis: ...........I...I'm cursed.

[3/6/14 12:23:28 AM] Janis: Janis rolls up the sleeve of her pajama shirt to reveal a star-shaped mark on her arm

[3/6/14 12:24:46 AM] Light: Grayson: Oh. Well, that's got to be frustrating. How much would it cost to get it removed?

[3/6/14 12:24:59 AM] Janis: I don't think it can be.

[3/6/14 12:25:08 AM] Janis: It wasn't supposed to affect me in the first place.

[3/6/14 12:25:25 AM] Janis: And I've yet to find a priest who can lift it.

[3/6/14 12:28:44 AM] Light: Grayson: So you think this mask can help? Are you sure?

[3/6/14 12:29:15 AM] Janis: Janis shrugs. The Mask seemed sure. And it might be worth a try. But more than that, I don't know if I want to kill her.

[3/6/14 12:29:38 AM] Janis: I mean...she tricked me to get in my head, which is bad.

[3/6/14 12:29:58 AM] Janis: But...she has let me have control, and she seems to be trying to keep me from eating people.

[3/6/14 12:30:10 AM] Janis: If she will die by being removed...I don't know.

[3/6/14 12:31:28 AM] Light: Grayson: ... tough choice. Well, maybe you should forgive but not forget.

[3/6/14 12:31:52 AM] Janis: ...maybe...thanks for talking. I think I wanna just go back to be now.

[3/6/14 12:31:58 AM] Janis: Suddenly I got very tired.

[3/6/14 12:32:41 AM] Light: Grayson nods. "I'll keep watch. Don't worry."

[3/6/14 12:32:56 AM] Janis: Janis climbs back into bed "Thanks.  Good night."

[3/6/14 12:33:06 AM] Janis: Janis goes to sleep

[3/6/14 12:33:12 AM] Light: Grayson keeps watch as promised!

[3/6/14 12:33:21 AM] Light: And we should probably stop there.

[3/6/14 12:33:27 AM] Janis: ((Yep))