PBA 025e

Wynn frowns and heads for the training room.

[3/10/2014 10:59:51 PM] Light: Valerian chases after her. "Hey, wait up."

[3/10/2014 11:00:03 PM] Wynn: Wynn ignores him!

[3/10/2014 11:00:24 PM] Light: He hurries a little bit and catches up, because she is wearing armor and he is not.

[3/10/2014 11:01:13 PM] Light: Val: You're mad. I can tell you're mad. And you should be. I'm sorry, all right?

[3/10/2014 11:01:52 PM] Wynn: Well, you're not blind.

[3/10/2014 11:02:56 PM] Light: Val: I shouldn't've lied, but I wanted to keep you all safe.

[3/10/2014 11:03:43 PM] Wynn: It's not your place to do so.

[3/10/2014 11:04:26 PM] Light: Val: ... it's everybody's place to keep the group safe.

[3/10/2014 11:05:37 PM] Wynn: And what was just sooooo important that you had to do it alone? That we couldn't help you?

[3/10/2014 11:06:12 PM] Wynn: You could have *died*, you know.

[3/10/2014 11:06:45 PM] Wynn: If we'd have been able to jump, you might have been back in a pod for who knows how long.

[3/10/2014 11:06:56 PM] Light: Val: But that *is* why. I'd've died alone, instead of taking you all with me.

[3/10/2014 11:08:20 PM] Wynn: And? Was it worth it? Was there some big elaborate falsehood you had to spin to succeed?

[3/10/2014 11:08:50 PM] Light: Val: ... well, no.

[3/10/2014 11:09:41 PM] Wynn: Then you faced this Ghost King *alone* for no reason.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:09:54 PM] Light: Val: ... I wouldn't say that.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:10:03 PM] Light: Val: I did talk him out of killing me.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:11:58 PM] Wynn: And you couldn't have done that with someone there to watch your back?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:12:45 PM] Light: Val: ... I'm not sure, honestly.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:13:17 PM] Light: Val: Maybe. ... one wrong word at the wrong time, though... I'm not sure.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:15:09 PM] Wynn: Well. I'm glad you're not dead.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:15:31 PM] Wynn: Wynn starts smacking one of the dummies with a mace.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:15:40 PM] Light: Val: Look, I'm sorry I lied to you, all right? I just wanted to keep you safe. You know Janis depends on you, right?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:16:23 PM] Wynn: You don't get it do you? You don't get to keep *me* safe. You *can't* keep me safe.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:17:12 PM] Light: Val: ... not from *everything*, no. Just homicidal ghosts who want to kill me and not you.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:18:59 PM] Wynn: Well, you've apologized. I guess you're done here then.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:19:28 PM] Light: Val: ... can you honestly say you wouldn't've done the same?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:19:29 PM] Wynn: Wynn puts the mace down, sets her shield against the wall, and selects a large two-handed weapon for practice.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:20:50 PM] Wynn: Honestly? I haven't got a *clue* what the hell happened back there. Everybody had their own theories as to what was happening and why, and *nobody* decided to share with the rest of us.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:21:08 PM] Wynn: This is a *crew*. A *team*. If we don't communicate, we're never going to figure out this curse.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:22:00 PM] Light: Val: ... that's a good point. But the rest of them wouldn't've left either.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:23:36 PM] Wynn: Maybe they didn't need to.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:24:24 PM] Light: Val: *Maybe*. Even I can't do anything if Janis says something bad at the wrong time.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:25:23 PM] Light: Val: She *is* just a kid. A scary kid, but a kid.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:26:43 PM] Wynn: You've said your part. I've said mine. If you're done, I need to keep my skills up with different weapons.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:27:19 PM] Light: Val: ... you won't forgive me, huh?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:29:16 PM] Wynn: What do you want from me? Sure. It's fine that you kept your big damn hero moment secret. That you lied to me.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:29:20 PM] Wynn: That you made me think for just one moment that there might be something more than killing and destruction in my life before showing me that all it will do is cause this sort of argument.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:30:18 PM] Light: Val: I didn't keep it secret, I told you as soon as I got back!

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:31:28 PM] Light: Val: And this is what happens when you don't have any ground rules. Nobody knows where they are. You never said you didn't want me to lie.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:32:20 PM] Wynn: Well, it doesn't matter anymore anyway. Do what you want.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:33:16 PM] Light: Val: Please? Tell me something I can do to make it up to you. There has to be *some* way you'd forgive me, isn't there?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:34:35 PM] Wynn: Do you have any idea what you asked me to do?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:35:00 PM] Wynn: What you *forced* me to do?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:35:18 PM] Light: Val: ... sacrifice a pawn to win the game?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:36:37 PM] Wynn: Yesterday was the worst day of my life since my family was taken from me.... and it stemmed from me leaving you behind in the compression field.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:36:52 PM] Wynn: Then today you make me leave you behind again when all that is there for you is the promise of death.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:37:24 PM] Wynn: Or your chance to woo-hoo  play god.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:37:47 PM] Light: Val: ... oh. Honestly, I didn't think you cared that much. Or at all, really.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:38:16 PM] Wynn: It's not *about* that.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:38:40 PM] Light: Val: Then I'm not understanding you. Explain it for me, I'm listening.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:39:59 PM] Wynn: Do you know what it means to be a Paladin?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:40:34 PM] Light: Val: ... I know several meanings of it, but I'm not sure which one you're referring to, so I'd have to say no.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:41:43 PM] Wynn: Beyond serving a deity in whatever form required, it means always doing what is right. Putting others before self. Protecting them. If necessary, dying for them.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:42:06 PM] Wynn: Leaving you alone in the compression field.... it wasn't *right*.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:42:26 PM] Light: Val: You would've come back for me, though.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:42:37 PM] Light: Val: Uh, no offense.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:43:31 PM] Wynn: Well, when we returned, I lost my powers, my connection to the Saint.... because I had failed.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:44:23 PM] Wynn: I was devastated. I couldn't do anything. I sat in the hall and I cried like a lost little girl.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:44:45 PM] Light: Val: ... *what*? Are you okay? What happened? ... are you okay?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:45:00 PM] Wynn: It was an illusion. Likely the Mask's.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:45:31 PM] Wynn: But it still hurt. *That* is what I was talking about with Grayson last night before I spoke to you.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:46:25 PM] Wynn: I have to do the right thing always because I *cannot* go back to that.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:46:29 PM] Light: Val: Oh, all right. ... yeah, that makes more sense now. I'm glad you're okay, though. That must have been horrible.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:46:49 PM] Wynn: It was.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:46:58 PM] Wynn: And then you tell me to do it all again.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:47:10 PM] Wynn: Willingly, this time.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:47:59 PM] Light: Val: ... well, to be fair, I couldn't've known that, could I? You didn't tell me until just now.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:50:23 PM] Wynn: Well, you do now.... and I assume you have a better handle on why I was explaining that people like me can't have relationships.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:53:09 PM] Light: Val: That doesn't follow, though.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:55:18 PM] Wynn: You can't protect me. You can't sacrifice yourself. And I can't have something distracting me from doing my duty.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:55:45 PM] Wynn: I can't have that moment of doubt and selfishness that makes me want to *live* in that split-second that I must protect another.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:56:03 PM] Light: Val: But you already have friends, so you're already going to have that.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:56:15 PM] Light: Val: And we could make a deal, you know.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:57:10 PM] Wynn: I have companions, but none of them would make me even consider not doing my duty.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:57:55 PM] Light: Val: ... really?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:58:11 PM] Wynn: Why is that surprising?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:58:37 PM] Light: Val: ... I don't know, I thought you were extra-protective of one of them, that's all.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/10/2014 11:59:54 PM] Wynn: If today, I was called to give my life so that another may live, I would do it without question.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:00:24 AM] Light: Val: Well sure, so would I. I just did.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:01:09 AM] Wynn: .....then I don't understand what you find surprising.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:01:27 AM] Light: Val: Well, I wouldn't be mad if you did it.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:04:23 AM] Wynn: I'm still not sure I follow.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:04:49 AM] Light: Val: You're mad at me for doing the exact same thing you'd've done if you could've.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:06:21 AM] Wynn: No. I *was* mad at you for forcing my hand and making me abandon a companion. I *was* mad at you for lying, even though I only know this because you *told* me... and I still don't know what you lied about.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:06:34 AM] Wynn: But like I said, it doesn't matter anymore.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:06:47 AM] Light: Val: Well, why are you mad *now*, then?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:07:23 AM] Light: Val: I lied about wanting to stay. ... I was pretty scared, really.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:10:11 AM] Wynn: Then why couldn't you just be honest about it? Why did you have to lie?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:11:02 AM] Light: Val: ... well, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't've let me stay.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:11:12 AM] Light: Val: I had to help those people, though.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:12:17 AM] Wynn: Obviously. And had I known you *were* the Promised One, I wouldn't have asked you to turn from your duty.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:12:32 AM] Wynn: But from my view? You were just choosing to die.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:12:37 AM] Wynn: Not fight. Just die.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:12:45 AM] Light: Val: I fight with words.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:12:58 AM] Light: Val: ... and *I* thought I was the promised one.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:12:59 AM] Wynn: You were going to sit on a chair that *kills* people.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:13:32 AM] Light: Val: Yeah, but I figured being the promised one would solve that part of it.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:17:02 AM] Wynn: Fine.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:18:03 AM] Wynn: Congratulations, Promised One. Well done.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:18:44 AM] Light: Val: ... you're still mad at me. I'm... obviously having a really stupid day here, so would you just please humor me and explain it again?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:18:53 AM] Wynn: I'm not mad at you.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:19:07 AM] Light: Val eyes Wynn.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:19:29 AM] Light: ((Only 16 Sense Motive!))

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:19:36 AM] Wynn: I'm mad at myself.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:19:46 AM] Wynn: ((She doesn't lie! lol))

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:19:50 AM] Light: Val: ... what? Why? It wasn't your fault.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:20:04 AM] Light: ((SM is for things beyond smoking out bluffs. With it you can find out how someone feels!))

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:20:28 AM] Wynn: ((Well that's the answer, anyway.))

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:21:39 AM] Wynn: I'm angry with myself for compromising my ability to make judgment calls. I'm angry because I was so damn ineffective today. I'm angry because I can't control the fact that I don't want to be mad at you anymore.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:23:00 AM] Light: Val: .... oh. Well, I don't want you to be mad at you either. Maybe I can broker a truce somehow?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:23:29 AM] Wynn: A truce with myself?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:23:44 AM] Light: Val: Yeah.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:23:54 AM] Wynn: I have spent a long time learning to control myself.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:24:13 AM] Wynn: Take a broken arm on the battlefield and shift to new fighting styles.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:24:25 AM] Wynn: Reign in the anger, the sadness, the fear.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:24:27 AM] Light: Val: Which is good, yes.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:24:49 AM] Light: Val: ...

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:26:10 AM] Wynn: But I couldn't control the sadness I felt when you decided to die. The hurt I felt when you said you *wanted* to stay or when you decided to use the guards to force your hand. And I certainly couldn't control that damn happiness when you showed up again.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:26:43 AM] Light: Val: Well, that just takes practice, like anything.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:28:44 AM] Wynn: What, are you planning on more suicide missions?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:29:11 AM] Light: Val: Of *course* not.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:29:32 AM] Light: Val: ... and maybe I won't go first anymore, either.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:29:48 AM] Wynn: You think that would have made a difference?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:30:09 AM] Light: Val: ... I don't know, maybe.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:30:23 AM] Light: Val: ... I won't lie to you again.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:31:01 AM] Wynn: ((lol you know I SM'd that. ...and got an 8. :P))

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:31:30 AM] Light: ((Literally lower than my bluff check is, but he seems sincere!))

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:32:04 AM] Wynn: I'd appreciate that.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:34:55 AM] Light: Val: ... if you forgive yourself. Because I think you're being too mean to you.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:35:31 AM] Light: Val: Deal?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:35:39 AM] Light: Val offers her his hand to shake.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:35:52 AM] Wynn: I'm not too mean to myself.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:36:35 AM] Wynn: I shut down today, and I shouldn't have.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:37:06 AM] Light: Val: I'm not arguing with you on that. I don't really know that either way.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:38:19 AM] Wynn: I carry the burden of a lot of my failures with me, and that is what keeps me striving to be better.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:38:35 AM] Light: Val: Which is good.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:38:49 AM] Wynn: If I "forgive" myself for them, I lose the opportunity to better myself.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:39:08 AM] Light: Val: ... I don't think that's true, really. I mean, you have to let *some* of it go.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:40:17 AM | Edited 12:41:07 AM] Wynn: And let me guess... you'd like me to forgive those that would let me accept your "interest".

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:41:40 AM] Light: Val smiles. "... yeah. Can't I be a little bit self-serving after saving a world from an evil god? A teeny bit?"

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:42:23 AM] Wynn: Wynn struggles not to smile. "See? This is what I'm talking about!"

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:42:37 AM] Light: Val: ... what is?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:43:27 AM] Wynn: ......I don't *want* to like you.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:43:37 AM] Wynn: ......but I do.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:44:12 AM] Light: Val: Oh. I'm not that bad, though.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:44:14 AM] Wynn: It would be so much easier if I didn't.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:46:51 AM] Light: Val: That's not really your fault either. I'm pretty likeable normally. Now that I've got your etiquette a little better. I'm ... still not really getting the severed reproductive organs bit, and I don't even know what you do instead of little decorative poison bottles, but that's not really that important, though, is it?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:47:59 AM] Wynn: No. I'd think people are more attracted to who you are rather than what little games you play... and I'm not exactly like the average 17-year-old girl.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:49:38 AM] Light: Val holds his hand out again. "I'm sorry."

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:50:18 AM] Wynn: Wynn takes it.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:50:54 AM] Wynn: .....I feel like I'm supposed to be saying sorry too, but I don't know what for.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:51:35 AM] Wynn: For being upset with you about something you didn't know about, I suppose.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:51:49 AM] Wynn: And now for botching this apology.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:52:17 AM] Light: Val shakes her hand. "It's okay. Things happen. It's only when you don't talk that it can't be fixed."

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:52:58 AM] Wynn: ....you know everyone's going to want to hear about it, right?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:53:45 AM] Light: Val: About what?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:54:13 AM] Wynn: What happened with the Ghost King and all. How it is you managed to show up here, even though we all thought you were as good as dead.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:56:05 AM] Light: Val: Oh. It wasn't that big of a deal really. He said everyone always tried to fight him.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:56:24 AM] Light: Val: And there's no way I could've survived *that*.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:57:30 AM] Wynn: Wynn smiles. "You may want to work on your story-telling skills."

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:58:01 AM] Wynn: Saving the world should be worthy of a good story.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:59:37 AM] Light: Val smiles too. "... maybe I'll work on it."

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 12:59:44 AM] Light: He takes a deep breath. "We're good?"

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:00:03 AM] Wynn: For now, I suppose.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:01:16 AM] Wynn: Though if you think you're tricking me into more ....anything, you're going to have to do a better job of getting to know me and letting me know you.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:03:28 AM] Light: Val: I didn't *trick* you. .... yeah, that's a good point.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:04:04 AM] Wynn: Oh?... a short bald man walking up and stealing a kiss wasn't a trick?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:05:27 AM] Wynn: And no, don't even get your hopes up. We're starting with good friends, and we'll see how it goes from there.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:06:13 AM] Light: Val: No, I just forgot I looked that way. It still felt like me.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:08:04 AM] Wynn: .....I am never going to hear the end of what happened this morning. And now everybody's going to be wondering where you are and why I'm not around either.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:08:46 AM] Light: Val: Well, I need to pick up some supplies. I'll stay in town--should be safe there, right?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:09:02 AM] Wynn: Alone?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:10:16 AM] Wynn: I think a few people had things they'd like to get.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:11:17 AM] Light: Val: If I don't go alone it won't be a surprise.

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:13:15 AM] Wynn: Wynn frowns. "If you get in trouble, you'll be the next one in manacles with a 24 hour watch."

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:13:35 AM] Light: Val: Promise?

<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:13:54 AM] Wynn: Oh for crying out loud.... get out of here.

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<p class="MsoNormal">[3/11/2014 1:14:11 AM] Light: He grins, bows ostentatiously, and bounds out.